I'mTired.

Is there any weight even coming off of me anymore?

I've had enough of starving myself and it getting me no where. I want the fat to fall off of me! Everytime I look at myself, I feel sheer disgust and disappointment. How could I have let myself get this far? How could my parents sit there watch me balloon out like this? Did they find it funny that their daughter got bullied for being a fatty. And as far as affection and intimacy went in High School, that was a none until I started dieting. It just goes to show that there's no love in this world for anyone who's fat.

Oh, and once again, I've missed my period, so my belly's huge and I feel like a flump. Plus, it's getting so cold that it's so hard to find the motivation to do any exercise anymore. I'm going out today with my sister. I hope today's going to be good. I'm in need of cheering up.

JustStarted.

Okay, so I've only just made this. I realised everybody else on PrettyThin had one and I thought I'd join because a lot of the things wrote in people's blogs are really inspiring to me. I'd like to inspire somebody myself.

So, I weighed myself this morning as soon as I woke up. And I'm down to 119lbs! I set it to be my goal before Christmas and I reached it 13 days early which is great! :D

I just hope I can lose a quite a bit more before it does actually get to Christmas though.

Them two are beautiful <3